G is for… [Happy Birthday]

"It's my happy birthday!" These words, with great delight, are about to be spoken numerous times today by our dearly loved little boy, Geoffrey. We don't know exactly when Geoffrey was born or how old he is, but this is the date that was created when a birth certificate was being made, July 10, 2014. [...]

Planning

By nature and by habit, I am a planner. I like to be organized, have things well thought through and coordinated. I pay attention to details. Procrastination makes me antsy. I like to follow rules. Most of the time this is a strength, but this season has not left room, physically or emotionally, to get [...]

The Dark

"To know the dark, go dark. Go without sight, and find that the dark, too, blooms and sings." - Wendell Berry New life starts in the dark. I read these words Saturday morning (6/16). Before the fever. Before another trip to the ER. Before "code sepsis" would be announced in reference to my child. Before another admission [...]

Slow work of God

50 days in. Day +39 post transplant. God willing, Geoffrey will get to come home to Mama Micah's tomorrow. At this point, this is where he knows home to be. For 50 days, with very little exception, he has remained within the confines of four walls. There is a window to show him when it [...]

Refuge

refuge - a condition of being safe or sheltered from pursuit, danger, or trouble. For the last 31 days, this "airplane bed" has served as a sacred space for us. It has been a place to hide. To rest. To laugh and cry. To play. To pray. Up and down, this bed has traveled with [...]

Day +13

Wednesday, December 13th: Ryan was Day +13 post-transplant. Sharon's cells were beginning to engraft, but it felt more cruel than celebratory. Ryan was in the ICU with multisystem organ failure. His entire body had grown edematous, as his liver enzymes escalated out of control.  Dialysis would begin in the afternoon. By evening, intubation was required [...]

Love

Day +11.  Geoffrey said these words, "I am not going to get better," as tears streamed down his little face. My reply, as tears flooded down mine: "Pole Geoffrey, but you are going to get better. Geoffrey, I love you so much." Over the past few days, I have said these words on repeat. In moments [...]

Unlearning

Day +6. Our sweet Geoffrey, to this point, has done well. I say that fully aware, at this early stage post-transplant, it is complex medical care and the grace of God that is sustaining Geoffrey's life. Sharon's cells are still finding their way around. They need time to grow and to find their home. We [...]

Two!

Ryan turns 2 today! I cannot begin to describe the love that fills our hearts for this sweet little boy. His life is a miracle and an indescribable gift to our family and to the world. I pray this coming year will be filled with much healing and joy! May there be endless play and [...]